sitting in a corner, lost....hopeless....eyes red and swollen, in disbelief, choking inside my senses grasp reality, flashes of trying, of happiness, love, to care, building bonds, family we created, history between us, torn between these ever vivid memories overwhelming me, my head fills up with confusion clouds my judgement, losing control remembering everything, you were all i ever wanted, everything i imagined you would be, perfectly suited, perfectly connected, we were the envy of all, how could you have done what you did? and think all will go back to normal, how could you account for your selfish acts, and expect all to be forgiven, you changed everything, shakened by such actions you did without remorse, deprived and starved you laid this for me to figure out alone, raped from what i thought of my happy ending, naked and left exposed my heart shrivels up rotting away, sickened by the very sight of you, for so long you fooled this stupid woman feeding my appetite of nothing more than bullshit, pretending and acting like you cared, for so long you left me hanging, making me feel like i was the only one, we had it all but we lost it, was it something i did to have driven you away? so many great things we created yet it wasn't enough, i wasn't enough, i stand up and now see this stranger before me i thought i knew you, was i wrong to love you, complications lay further ahead tired of getting screwed over, battling myself i fight this war of light & darkness within my soul, can't determine what's wrong or right, walking lifeless to a dead end i just keep staring at the bare wall, growing colder by the second i shield what's left, masking my true self i bury it forever, i turn, put on a fake smile and remain quiet i'm no more....

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